Mothering Creations

I have two children. I gave birth to my first at a freestanding birth center. As far as giving birth in an institution, it was probably on the low intervention side, but there was still intervention, and there were things about that birth that did not go well and many long term effects. Both my baby and I were left injured, and my ability and sometimes my desire to care for him were very low. Ok, this was my first. There is generally a huge learning curve when we first try anything.

My second baby I had at home with no intervention. Birth went well, a few minor glitches, but no major injuries. My ability and desire to care for this child were strong. Ok, this was my second. I guess one could say I was a bit more familiar with what I was doing. And that is exactly it. I was more present and involved because I finally figured out what *I* needed to do - no passing the buck on this one.

With my first, I lost control over the birth, and yes I didn't want to control the birth, but I didn't really want to abdicate control of it to the birth center staff either. In fact, I wanted to give up control to my baby - let him take the lead, really - and trust Mother Nature to handle the rest. But I still needed to be present to the process - no phoning this one in. With my second, it was Mother Nature and my baby and me all the way with them leading the way and me being present enough to follow their wisdom.

It seems when we're more active and aware of any creative endeavor we care for it better, nurture it, and are more committed to it. When we abdicate control and lose consciousness over our creations, there is a lot of room for things to go awry and get out of control - with sometimes disastrous consequences.

Mothering any creation is quite a task - gentle guiding but always being aware enough to know when to pull that child back on course should things go awry.

I wonder... Are we mothering all of our creations with our awareness where it needs to be?

Dedicated to the Human Spirit

I came to the realization last night that I am afraid of my own passion. I've been aware of this phenomenon for some time but never really sensed it in myself. However, since I have been taking steps over the last several weeks to get more in touch with my passion, I have been having these strange anxious feelings and not really understanding what they were about. Now I get it!

To be honest I have been holding back much of my life. Not really letting the world see the real me. Scary stuff because honestly nobody has ever really demonstrated that they get me. And why should they? I'm sure they are busy grappling with themselves.

Yesterday, I had the honor of witnessing a neighbor, who had had knee surgery that became quite life threatening during her recovery process, take possibly her first steps outside her front door to take in a little fresh spring air since before the whole ordeal. It was quite a sight to see her so carefully and diligently take those steps. Such courage of conviction. And this woman lives without a thyroid.

I think we forget, and maybe even take for granted, just how courageous and powerful we are, even in the smallest of moments. And sometimes I think we fear it - like me and my passion. It's almost like the quote from Marianne Williamson that Nelson Mandela used in his inaugural speech:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

How are you courageous, powerful, and passionate, even in the smallest of moments?

The Garden

Everyday I meditate in nature. I can feel such bliss and peace within myself when I'm out among the plants, trees, birds, rocks, myself. I love it! All I have to do is just be present and pay attention. No other tending to this garden is necessary. The Earth is a perfect garden unto herself.

My children remind me of that one all the time. Most of what I do to care for them is just be present and pay attention to them, and by golly, they let me know when I'm not!

What an honor it is to live in this garden... Even when the journey is not always easy.

More to come about my journey....

Welcome to the Garden!!

Welcome to Mother Goddess Garden!

Leveraging the power, wisdom, and beauty of mother nature in our everyday lives by living in harmony with her.

I've been on an amazing journey learning about mother nature's wisdom since 1991, and within the past eight years the journey has picked up speed. It is my hope with this blog and website that I am able to share with you the tools and knowledge that have helped me a great deal through this journey. I also have deep concerns about the world my children are growing up in today and see that we do not always have to go into agreement with gloom and doom predictions. We can always take action.

I see that when women, particularly mothers, are in their power that society and the environment benefit greatly. Our children grow up to be stronger people and contribute to society and care for the world they live in instead of becoming a liability and creating more problems.

Right now I see that we humans have created a world that is likely to become uninhabitable if we continue to hold on to some outdated ideas. Things are shifting, but there is still more to do. It is necessary that women everywhere take their power and that people everywhere embrace the Mother Goddess within themselves because... When Momma ain't happy, nobody is happy!!